What Are Dreams And Memories

Mood: thoughtful
Listening to: My inner being

Dreams are faded memories
Memories are shattered Dreams
Dreams are something above
Memories are something below.

Dreams flow like the wind but
memories stop the wind
Dreams keep you falling while
memories prevent you from falling.

Dreams are sweet while
memories are sour
Dreams are "sometimes" false while
memories are real.

Dreams are loveliness but
memories are loneliness
Dreams go rotten while
memories stay fresh.

Dreams waste space while
memories are from the heart
While memories fade and
Dreams shatter...

A dream of you
In a world without you.

A Modest Introduction

Illusion, Isanity... or Intelligence: Pick One

The chair in which I'm sitting doesn't know it's an illusion, so supports my body anyway.
The sky doesn't know it's an illusion, and keeps on holding both stars and planets in some fixed relationships, even while we sleep. So we aren't holding them up while we sleep, are we?
In short, reality exists, because these things physically exist apart from which desire concerning their existence. They don't know that they are but figments of our imaginations, as if we were gods and thus smart enough to imagine all those things so well, even though we aren't, must be... our brains; for if we can imagine them so masterfully, we can sit on our imaginations: why is there so much trouble in the real world?

With all the bad in the world, how can a kind and loving God be almighty and ruling over it?

"The world is filled with wonderful opportunities, brilliantly disguised as intractable problems."

Human beings can only reach virtues by choosing with their free will, not to pursue vices. If a computer is programmed to always tell the truth, we wouldn't call it virtuous. Yet, truthfully, a computer never lies. To appreciate light, there must be darkness. To appreciate life, there must be death. We cannot learn unless we make some mistakes. That is... ...most of us.

Indeed, God does have absolute knowledge of all things and has power over all things and He does love human beings. The bad in the world should be seen, not as inherently bad but, rather as lessons for humanity for which it must learn and through which we appreciate the value of good things as and when we can than through our efforts.

All Nighters with Mana Khemia: Alchemists of Al-Revis

So much for school in reality. I love this game so much. I'm not all for Harry Potter so, alchemy in school... it rocks. There is more to it than magic. But, Alchemists of Al-Revis is capable of an all nighter. Just about every night I put my hands on this game, I'm up until 6 'o clock in the morning having a time with it.

I love how there are hundreds of items that seem infinite that you have to collect in order to synthesize them into other items... interesting and powerful at the most of it. ^^

Going to class can be a real ass bitter with the assignments you have to attend to but, going to detention for not completing them can be worst, and sometimes easy.

Eventhough I tend to play other games, I don't think I'm quite finished with this one, yet. I'm on chapter 8, on my way to becoming a senior. "in reality, i only made it to the 7th grade for mysterious reasons".

In short, I love how humorous this game is. There is never a dull moment but, just like any other game in the world, playing the game will piss you off, depending on what mistakes you have made. But, the music... in battle, with all thanks to my fav VG company Koei, it's awesome. Love the vocal soundtracks to this game as well, especially the intro. v^o^v

Movie clips in GazettE's Chizuru video!?

Remember the movie clips in the GazettE's Chizuru PV in 2006? Well, I just now realized what the movie was. It's a korean movie called A.P.T., of course, short for apartment. It is indeed a horror movie and I love it. But, the reason for the clips in the PV itself, were basically because this movie, aka, Apartment, was being released in Japan around that time of year. Who would've known... ?? O.O

So, if any of you don't know, here is a review of the movie itself:

Se-jin, a young woman who lives in an old apartment in a Seoul suburb, amuses herself by observing the windows of the apartments on the other side. One day, she notices that the lights of some of these apartments are turned off at the very same time. She begins to suspect that this pattern is somehow related to a series of mysterious deaths in the neighborhood. She becomes more and more deeply involved as she attempts to solve the mystery.

It starts off with a news report, talking to this dude with extremely long hair that, apparently never comes out of his apartment. And some other stuff I forgot thanks to the part where the main character, Se-jin, is inside of a subway station and is suddenly aware that she's being followed by, who she didn't know to be completely suicidal. So, the chick that was following her, sits onto the bench behind Se-jin with an mp3 player, and starts crying, listening to music that I find, sorrowful myself but, Se-jin looks back, and finds that of course, and then turns away, but when she looks back again, she finds this woman missing with her purse and mp3 player just sitting there, playing. When she turns back around to face the area where of course, the trains run, Se-jin is scared shitless by this woman who apparently was standing beside her, in silence.

So, they begin a conversation, and the woman says some craziness and leaps out in front of Se-jin, towards the tracks and in front of a train that sounded off of course of it's coming or whatever but, she does that grabs Se-jin, trying to take her with her. Se-jin grabs onto her, trying to pull her and this chick just started resisting, and when the train came... ... BAM!!!... ... instantly takes the psycho with it, leaving Se-jin in silent tears, tramatized at the police station.

If you haven't seen this movie, I highly recommend it to the fullest. It's crazy and yet, Chizuru fits this entire movie well. Basically everything about the two fit.

The Haunting in Conneticut and the mysterious hours after it...

This is actually a great movie. I loved every minute of it. Watched it twice. Once at 9pm, and as it ended at 11, I waited through the credits and once 12 midnight hit, I really got settled in but, thanks to the popcorn, tortilla chips and ice cream, they caused me to doze off numerous times and permanently at 1 going on 2am, just finishing with the climax of the movie "the middle".

Call me crazy but, during both times I watched the movie, I saw, during the first round of movie viewing, an adult shadow-like figure walk towards the kitchen, and the second time, out of the kitchen. It wasn't a living being, I was the only one downstairs and my senses? i hear like a bat and have vision and senses like a cat. But my ears and big or pointy. I just know how to heighten my senses. But... after I dozed off, I woke up a little too early, like around 5am and saw that the television was off and the dvd player was still running. Once again, not a single human soul participated in this act. My idiot 28 year old sister and her idiot boyfriend never stay up passed 12 midnight.

My idiot sister, told me that her bathroom door opened by itself but, it was her boyfriends towel hanging upon the door that caused it. My situation remains a mystery but, things like this always happen to me. I know that some tv's have an automatic shut off type capability but this one doesn't. My 5 year old nephew, a year ago, saw the shadow of a little girl, standing by the door of the bedroom that myself, my oldest sister, her kids and my precious jewel, my niece, Callise, were all sleeping in.

We are always a pact when together but, I believe him that much. I know the supernatural and well, let's just say that I have tampered with witchcraft for quite a while but, lost that ability long ago as I nearly almost entered a realm I didn't belong during the meditation process I was attending to alone about 6 years ago, just nearly getting ready to levitate in the air and all that craziness but, as my eyes were closed, I begin to see flashes of light. Just flashing away and I could hear the sound of it too, like when you see lights flickering extremely fast but, in my case, it started slow and then began speeding up. I stopped with the whole process but, now that I think about it, I have connected with something that still remains unknown to me but, I have a pretty good idea.

Sleepless Night Part 1

Theme: BONNIE PINK - No One Like You

Unlike any other sleepless night, this one is quite different from the others. There is normally just too much on my mind but, at this time, a little more has been added in these thoughts and yet, I feel sleepy but, I can't... ...

First thought, the signing of a 60 day moving term "whatever its called". My idiot 28 year old sister had to sign a paper in order to get something done for 60 days to move out of this apartment but, management wanted to cause some problems and tell her that the notice for 30 days has already been looked at and can't change. Boy, did they pull a fast one. Yet, they are such liars. According to the time limit, there is too much furniture to be moved within 30 unless movers are called for assistance. Other than that, her idiot bf made stupid gestures and remarks LIKE an idiot trying to fix things but, my sis got pissed off even more than she was already and "called the world... ... by phone".

In my case, my mother of course, won't allow me to come back into her home coz she thinks that me and my step father will do nothing but argue everytime something doesn't feel, go, or seem right or whatever. I used to hate him but, I can't hold such a burden now that I'm getting older. Besides that, we don't even talk to each other that much. There is still tension between the two of us. I can feel it everytime we come close or just cross each others path.

Not to worry coz I might just go into the Police force. Screw the military, the police pay more. Speaking of it, I went to the police station today for info and got it of course, but before so, my idiot sister kept trying to criticize the way I speak. I never told her but, she makes me nervous when I'm talking to someone when she's around. I hate it when people do that. I'd rather speak the way I always do. I'm me, not anyone else, so I do what I do.

So, after we got back, we ate Lumpia and went on about our business though she was still pissed and ranting and raving all day about the first event and fussed at her bf for being a stupid idiot. I forgot about the whole police thing coz I was and still am nervous about it. So, I cleaned my sister's laptop which is technically mine since she has only used it once and I used it since forever, of all my music and transferred it all to my three mp3 players when I stumbled across some american rock bands, mainly Sevendust, Muse, Nonpoint, U2, Red, and I forgot the others. I listened to songs from Sevendust and instantly, I got that chill throughout my entire body and BAM!!! back to my depressed state, just that fast.

So, from that time, all I have been doing was thinking. Thinking thinking thinking...

Even when I played the ps2, I was thinking. So, I turned it off and started listening to more music. I left thr jrock and vk alone and wanted to give it a break so,Bonnie Pink was my first choice and Yuko Ando, my second.

I started by listening to a few songs from Bonnie's Heaven's Kitchen single and begin thinking some more and listening to the current song, the theme of this blog, I started thinking about how lonely I am and have been for the past 4 years without a soulmate. It really sucks not having someone to love and cherish like a soulmate and ever since my heart got shattered, it's been feeling like a stone and like there is a lump in my throat. I've done nothing but shed tears throught out the time my very being was damaged on the inside, even to this day. And because my precious jewel, my niece, Callise is now distant away and I have no one to talk to or have the best time with anymore. It seems like everyone is being either pushed or pulled away and for no reason and GOD is making me suffer. But, why, for too long and for what reason!?

So ends this sleepless night as I forget somethings to say. I know I have and I know what to say but can't find the right way to express or say it.

Off to dream world I go. I wonder what predictions my dreams will make this time.

VelsraW the Session Band

I have been meaning to post this earlier in time but...

If you have guessed it already, yes, VelBet and UnsraW have joined forces, but, this was only for December 17th, 2008 at Takadanobaba AREA Tokyo.

The session band consists of:

Vo. Yuzuki
Vo. Satoshi (now ex. UnsraW roadie and official guitarist of Para:noir)
Gu. Rei (UnsraW)
Gu. Takashi (ex. VeltBet)
Ba. Jun (UnsraW) - hopefully his departure from UnsraW is temporary until he fully recovers from this motorcycle accident
Dr. Ayuto (ex. KisNate, BLACK SHIP)

They played only VelBet and UnsraW songs like:

VelBet - Bunny
VelBet - Sakura chiru
UnsraW - SOCIAL FAKER
UnsraW - Warai oni

And yet, all while Yuuki was still recovering. :( but I'm so glad he has now. VelBet is a really cool band, I like their sound, though of course, I never went to Japan to see this but, I ran across the news about this and forgot to post it.

UnsraW's ex. roadie Satoshi actually sounds great as a vocalist.

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