Monday, July 27, 2009

PRELUDE TO DREAMS Story

It is said that our dreams, no matter how bad or good... that they can predict the future. I remember this one, beautiful dream, and a girl that I fell deeply in love with.

I didn't want to wake up from such a dream. All I wanted to do was go back into my deep slumber and dream again...

...I wanted to see her again.

CHAPTER ONE - THE EXISTENCE OF LOVE PART ONE

Author: Arinori-Endo "Vernon"
Genre: Drama, Action, Mystery

There it is, a huge field, that I'm suddenly standing before and three path ways, but... I don't know which one to take. I'm not close to any of them so, I've got enough time to think about it.

"What am I doing here anyway, I could dream up something better than this but, we'll just see what happens. Like always."
There is a girl, standing right in front of me. I don't know whether to look up at her or just keep going. Gosh, I wonder sometimes why I shy away too much.
"Alright, it can't be helped. I have to look up, or else, I'll regret it later on."
And so I took my eyes and my head away from the ground to look up at this girl who is standing in my path, when suddenly, I just couldn't move a muscle. I stood there... paralyzed. My reason? This beautiful girl that is standing before me with that beautiful smile.
"I wonder who she is. I can't look away... oh no! I can feel my heart pounding but, I don't know what it's trying to tell me right now."
That feeling I felt, like my heart just kicked me right in the chest... it was my heart telling me that I have fallen in love again, but this time, inside of a dream. It wants me to make a move, but, I can't. That smile is so mesmerizing that I've been put in some kind of trance. But now, she's coming towards me.
"Aw man, what am I going to do? She's coming right to me. And look, she's still smiling. Does she know me?"

She stopped in front of me, and now, we're standing face to face. That smile seems to be going away and it looks like she's about to speak.
"Can I see your hand?" She said it so sweetly. I couldn't resist, I pulled my right hand out of my pocket instead of the hand I write with and held it out for her. "Here, hold on to mine, let's take a walk."
"Sure, but which way?" I said in a choking manner. I was so shocked by what just happened so fast, and I was kinda happy. She looked at the paths and said, "There is three, what do you think that they mean?" I got a clue, "The one on the left looks to small, so I'm guessing that only one of us can walk it. The one on the right looks a little wide, but we'd be too bunched up, th..." "Ooh, I like the one on the right. We'd be closer together, sorry for interrupting."
"I'd love that but, we would stumble as we walk. It's alright, I'll allow interruptions."
"If we stumble, then that means you'll have to carry me, teehee"
"I really wouldn't mind that. I'd love to carry you in my arms."

And there it was, she had me blushing. She stopped me from explaining the paths to my best but, I didn't care. When I looked beyond each path, it looked like there was nothing there to begin with. But, before I could make one sound, this beautiful girl put her finger upon my lips.

"I don't normally ask this but, what's your name?" She shooshed me, and turned to face me again. I couldn't help but smile. I ignored the fact of how weird this whole dream was but, she smiled again, with that glimmer in those beautiful eyes, and those cheeks, and well, all I can say is, I've dreamed the perfect dream and I don't want to wake up from it, ever.
But, what's this, she's wrapping her arms around me. And now, I'm sleepy. She's so warm, I feel like I'm going to die in her arms. I hugged her back. It was a jerk reaction that I couldn't control.
"What's the meaning of all of this, dear?" "Just close your eyes and you will see."
I did exactly that, and for about three whole minutes, I was in complete darkness. It felt like hours.
Just so suddenly, I felt lips touch my cheeks and then my lips, and when I opened my eyes again, the scenery changed and we were standing in a moonlit flower garden, next to a cherry blossom, falling with leaves, and white feathers flowing in the wind. Our lips were locked, sealed together. Kissing in the beautiful breeze, when suddenly...

"Vernon, wake up!"
Was I still dreaming or what?
I woke up, sweating. My lips were sealed to the pillow and...
"WHAT! A pillow? No... I can't be awake already." It was my brother, standing before before at the foot of the bed. "Yes, a pillow. What else? Get up already." "Yeah, and he was kissing it, hahahaha!" Oh no, and my baby sister too? This day isn't going to be good at all.
"Oh, and it was such a good dream too." "So, who was it, who was in it, teeheehee." My baby sister, she's twelve and well, my brother, only younger than me by two years. "Do you really wanna know?" She responded with a quick, "No, not really."
There you have it, my brother and sister, sitting there in my room, watching Ninja Warrior on G4. That show never gets old. I felt my heart kick me again, but later on in the day, or should I say afternoon. I was left feeling depressed about the dream. She was so beautiful. And yet, seemed so perfect for me. Maybe I will get to see her again, but, what if she is someone that I will see in the next life. I don't doubt that at all.
So, I got out of bed, my pillow drenched with sweat. I ran downstairs quickly for a bite to eat, to fight off this depression. Some left over spaghetti from last night.
"You were sleep for a long time. What's wrong?" That was my mother. Surprisingly but, knowingly, I sensed her presence. "Oh, nothing." I said with a smile. "I had a good dream. I didn't want to wake up from it." "It must've been that good of a dream for you to be sleeping that long." I said nothing, I just smiled and laughed. "That's a lot of spaghetti, are you depressed? What's wrong? I'm your mother, you're supposed to be telling me this stuff." "It's nothing. I just want to go back to sleep, that's all." I kept the smile on my face but, it got small. "That really must have been a good dream, hahaha."
This led to having a long conversation about dreams, I didn't tell her mine. Her dream was pretty interesting, which led me to tell her... "They say that our dreams predict things." I just left it at that, and she said, "In my dream, I dreamt about babies, and one of them was your sister." I laughed and she continued, "while you were sleep, I don't know if you heard me or not but, I called her and was like, YOU'RE NOT PREGNANT ARE YOU?"
That was pretty funny. I couldn't help but continue on with the laughter, but the bad thing is, she was pregnant. This was my older sister, my oldest and closest sister already had her children, about three of them. As for the older one, this would be her second. It's too early to get into names, so, you'll know them later on.
So, mother went upstairs and we parted ways. I sat down at the table and ate my brunch, watching Cow and Chicken on Cartoon Network when suddenly, I went into a daze. This time I could only hear voices and everything was pitch black and dark. I was disappointed that this dream girl wasn't there, but, maybe in another dream.

This was, of course, proof of the existence of love and a next coming that some day, I'd get to see her. Well, all we can do is wait and see what will happen next.

Something did alright...

*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!!!*

There was a knock at the door. I wonder who it could be...

TO BE CONTINUED...

When The Storm Subsides

Mood: deeply within sorrow

I've been driving through these nights
This road reminding me of all I am
As time drags on, these windows fade
Reality starts slipping from my mind

All I know is this all fades, the second that I'm by your side
Can this be real, can this be fate?

Just say that you'll be there for me
Please say that you'll be there
Just say that you'll be my side
When the storm subsides

All these years beneath the skin
Everything inside me turning to shame
I was lost, but now I can see
This fate is turning deep inside of me

All I know is this all fades, the second that I'm by your side
Can this be real, can this be fate?

Just say that you'll be with me
Please say that you'll be there
Just say that you'll be my side
When the storm subsides

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Sunday, July 26, 2009

Blind Revelation

Mood: Depressed

Listening to: Head Phones President - Star

Sitting here, lonely

Inside of this small, white room again

Looking at the world as it pass me by

I see myself inside you

I stand and stare with my eyes so clear

I can't even shed a tear.

There are days I love you so much I can't breathe

That, I don't cry because thats not what I do

But I find my eyes just kind of leak

For hours, just on and off

She's everything to me.

You say that you're with someone else

Every time I come near

Reject me every chance you get

And right now I don't care.

Every time I saw you, I wanted you

Opened up to you, I thought of you thoroughly.

You don't care about how I feel

You care about yourself and everyone else

Send you messages, express my feelings

This silence is so deep, it's tearing me.

How could you be so blind

I'm going out of my mind

I wonder if or when this world dies off

Comes to that sudden end

If I will see any of you again.

I feel I have suffered far too long

I don't care about this life, this family most of all

No one cares for me, no one

I don't believe you at all

When anyone says they care

How could you be so blind.

All I want, is rest

I want peace, I want death

Because I'm tired of living,

The suffering, for I am living

My mind, peacefully villainous

Normally, rarely always thinking of suicide

The endless sorrow.

How could you be so blind

I'm going out of my mind

Seems like my life has no ending

With all these emotions, I'm trapped with these feelings.

Blind

Mood: Depressed

Listening to: the rain

Sitting here, lonely

Inside of this small, white room

Looking out to the sky

Wondering, what am I gonna do

Turn on the radio

Listen to the words from my favorite songs

Making me wonder

Sometimes my life is based on what they say.

How could you be so blind

I'm going out of my mind

Inside I feel my heart and soul

It's telling me to run away

It's telling me to runaway

From everything that ruined my life

And that's making me go insane.

Why do you treat me

The way you always do

Wondering if you realize

That because of you, my life has changed

Im not the boy

Who you thought that I would be

This is the demon

You awoke inside of me.

How could you be so blind

I'm going out of my mind

Inside, I feel my heart and soul

Telling me to runaway

It's telling me to runaway

From everything around me

From everything that's killing me inside.

Sometimes I wonder

If I'm the perfect mistake

The one that stands

Outside of the picture

Since I'm the middle child

Should I runaway.

I know that if I should stay

Here all the bullshit that you say

If I should live this imprisoned life

Nothing is bound to change.

A Failure To Friendship

Mood: Rejected

Listening to: the wind

Don't fall in love with a friend

You're just heading for the heartbreak session

You could tell them what your heart feels

How they make it skip a beat

Tell them anything you want to

But it will only bring you to defeat

Trust me, I've been there many times

Rejected every minute I try to make it right

You refuse me but I'll wait

You're the only person I could find

There's no one else like you

Haven't found someone else of your kind

I understand if you want to just be friends

But it'll only break my heart.

We sit outside on the dirty ground

But there's more interesting things that we have found

Oh can you hear the sound

Its the calling of the broken hearted

The one's that walk around who feel departed

From what was life, what they have started

Don't fall in love with a friend

You're just heading for the heartbreak session

You could say the things that'll make them cry

It will make them wonder what makes you try

You refuse me but I'll wait

My heart tells me you're the one I'm looking for

It starts to pain me when I think of you

At times I don't know what to do

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